I should start off by describing the emotional rollercoaster I decided to ride during the month of December... after getting sick from the ride I wisely got off the rollercoaster and saught the Lord for help! It all started when my husband and I had planned a beautiful christmas party and expected many to show up with many of their friends showing up with them, yet only four followed through with their committment to come. I also had made several appointments with new believers and had been cancelled on multiple times. The lesson came to me when I asked the Lord what did we do wrong during the preparations of this party and with my making appointments. I had no problem with getting students to come to my parties in the past, but now that our focus group has changed to working with the business population of this city rather than university students, I was starting to find out that they are not as committed and loyal as students who have much more free time are. They have overtime to work, families perhaps, friends coming into town, or a basketball game to play.. pretty much misplaced priorities as lost people do. So why am I taking it so personal that most of the appointments that I make with new contacts fall through? The Lord, in His amazing faithfulness, reminded me to be thankful with what He is doing rather than complaining about what is not happening. Colossians 2:6-7 "So then, just as you received Christ Jesus as Lord, continue to live in him, rooted and built up in him, strengthened in the faith as you were taught, and overflowing with thankfulness." Where was I overflowing with thankfulness? So much have I to be grateful for that I was only seeing what was not working in my own plans rather than seeing how amazing God is and how beautiful is His love for us. I decided to change my thinking, my words, my heart, to give praise to Him instead. If someone cancels an appointment with me because they do not find the importance of taking time to study His Word, than I will move onto the next interested heart and continue to share His Truth. A little doubt, a little dissapointment, and believing big lies will quickly discourage us from why we are here. I am here to reflect Christ, who lives in me, to all around me. I have used the lesson I learned from our Christmas party, which was still a wonderful time, and the cancellation of appointments to spur me on to find where God is working in this city. My next agenda: if they will not come to us, go to them! Go where they are, go to those who are ready to commit, find those that see their need for God and are desperate for something else in their life, find those that are waiting for His name to be shared with them. They are out there, I just need to go and trust that in His leading he will lead me to those hearts that He has prepared for a Revelation of who He is. After all Jesus did come to us....
